All Alone, No One To Be With

I am a loner. Not in the sense that I'm oh so lonely but more so that I live most of my life by myself. Thinking back most of the songs I loved were about being alone. Soldier, by myself, the title song, just to name a few. I can't help but ask why?? Why am I so content to being alone? Why does that what some people fear most not phase me? Especially considering my strong family ties. Half of the why is personality and the other half is personal experience. I don't have much faith in humans. Never have and life hasn't given me much reason to change that thought. People are stupid, vengeful, liars, backstabbers, unreliable, and astonishingly useless. I can remember kindergarten where teachers realized my genius and tasked me to help the stragglers. Minutes later everyone turns to see a frustrated 6 year old Jabs insulting the other kids. This of course hasn't changed but the few good ones have prevailed thru all of my social Snafu's. I feel as if my entire relationship with the human race has been one big social Snafu. The other half is of course 100% me.  I have maintained a level of anonymity throughout my life. I have become a ghost of sorts, an invisible man. People recognize me but know nothing about me, which at times works in my favor but in more social situations don't. For example I've gone to the same bodegas my whole life, and yet nobody knows anything about me. Not even my name, despite being carded EVERY SINGLE TIME.  But I get that I know you look from them and sort've continue on living my life. I don't build close relationships with bartenders or meet cool restaurant owners, or even get too close to my barber. It's sad I know, but I've basically built my life around being seen, heard and subsequently forgotten. I know this way of life isn't normal, or even suggested for that matter but this is the life I chose. One day I'll figure out this whole being social thing... or not